It's okay to not feel anything. I promise it's really okay. Not everyone understands, nor do they need to. You have fought battles and wars, it is okay to not feel anything.
Resist the urge to be angry at your emotionless reaction. It is okay to not feel anything. That is your survival. You have lived through trauma and survived. This is the cost of survival.
It is okay to not feel anything, for now. But surviving is not thriving and I need to get there. Honor your survival, it kept you alive but put it to rest today. Put it all to rest.